The intention of my time here in India was to have a better understanding of Ayurveda and learn Ayurvedic bodywork. As I spend more time here I have realized adopting the lifestyle is the most important part. Ayurveda is a practice of medicine that focuses primarily on human happiness, health and creative growth. It allows the capability of self realization for self healing. How do we want to honor and treat our mind body and soul? I have spent way too much time in my life wanting to do, be, look like someone else but myself. I would dedicate 150% on perfecting the external part of me and tried everything in my power to control that. The control ironically got very much out of control to the point of chaos. I self destructed everything in my life, my relationships with myself, others, body, and mind. I always searched for an answer anywhere but within myself. If anything this trip's lesson of balancing all parts of your life to be well has the most value to me. It's weird to say but part of me feels like I haven't lived for 35 years which isn't entirely true but moving forward I want to look at life with a different set of eyes that lives, feels, loves without fear. I don't want to judge, engage in negative thinking, I want to believe and practice on being present and serving others.